A better understanding of why the world needs "truth"

I should be sleeping right now, well I should always be sleeping at a time when I write these random blogs but apparently I never sleep at the right times. My rooms been looking like a dumpster lately because I haven't found the time to clean or even do anything. I spent the last half hour cleaning and organizing my desk though. It makes me feel better when the surroundings around my computer is neat and not everywhere. I should really start working on my closet and floor though.

Ever since school started, I've been feeling really overwhelmed. It's as if theres so many things going on and I'm stuck in this "I have no idea what to do now" mode. I know that theres things I need to complete to stay on top of everything yet I can't make out what it is. Everything seems so unclear and vague. Maybe sleeping late is taking its toll on my body and mind. I'm not living up to the schedule I had imagined for myself. I imagined myself sleeping early, commuting to school, accomplishing all the necessary tasks that day, work, and chill. What it turned out to be was lacking the needed hours of shuteye, tired commutes, taking long naps, getting nothing done, work, and chill (sometimes). I feel so drained to the point where I just don't care anymore. Which is definitely not a good thing.

I also have to get use to everything being online and having an online class on fridays. Its true, deanza is just a bigger high school where teachers still baby you. I believe thats why people stay there sometimes. Its because they're not ready to grow up and do things on their own. They need direction in life and someone to push them in the direction they want to believe is right for them. Honestly, Its just a little sad to see older people who should be out of deanza by now, still lounging around and not taking anything seriously. I'm really not trying to be mean but shit what the fuck are you waiting for? Nothing will come to you if you sit around and do nothing. Sometimes you need to push yourself in order to make progress or else you'll always be at the same level you're at now.

I was watching "The Last Lecture" and it truly is inspiring. Its a real eyeopener and I think everyone should watch it. In brief, Its about a professor by the name of Randy Pausch who gives his last lecture before he died from pancreatic cancer. He talks about his life and how life should be viewed and how it should be lived. One thing that caught my ears was when he was talking about the truth. He stated that everyone should "always tell the truth," because growth cannot occur when the truth is hidden. If everyone was given a pat on the back for doing something even the slightest bit wrong, progress cannot be obtained. No one would try to do better and exceed their potential because they're satisfied with that pat on the back. By telling someone the truth, it teaches that person and also motivates them to achieve a state closer to perfection.

When someone such as a teacher is hard on their students and pushes them around, it's not because the teacher is a total asshole. The real reason is because they want you to succeed and the best way to help their students is to give them a hard time. By pushing a student, the teacher is embedding motivation into their students. When someone has stopped pushing you around or never even bothered to, it often means that they have completely given up on you or never had faith in you in the first place. This I find to be true with the evidence that students who have had easy teachers never learned much and those who had harder teachers walked out of a classroom with greater knowledge and understanding of the subject.

Anyways gotta sleep.

till next time,

toodles.