I think its hard to accept the fact that your friends whom you've had a special-friends-forever bond with, have moved on and left you in the dust. In a way, emotions of betrayal and disappointment surface but are once again, pushed back down by the power of realization. You begin to realize that its all just a cycle that everyone happens to get caught in.

It is much like fishing, A fisherman fishes with the intention of catching a big fish but clearly, he must reel in all the small fish first and throw them back in. And once he catches that big fish, the trouble of going through the large group of small fish that nonetheless will never bring a comparable happiness to him, was all worth it. Same goes for really good friends and relationships. but we'll stick with the friends category for now.

Good friends are really hard to come by nowadays. Most of the time people put on this facade that makes you want to believe they have good intentions and potential for being a long-term close friend. Eventually, it hits you that they aren't who you perceived them to be and you see them in this entirely different light. Its quite saddening actually. I once thought there were a lot of people whom I could actually count on, but after coming across numerous incidents of subtle let-downs, I've narrowed that amount to only a few. Its not that I no longer enjoy the company of those I've distanced myself from, its more so the fact that I find it pointless to continue fostering a friendship that's already reached its potential.



disappointment. down. a bit upset. ------ pretty much sums up my mood.